Honestly I can't even remember when I had a proper 8 hours of sleep, lately for the past couple of weeks I have been waking up at odd hours of the night, I honestly tried everything even going out for late runs at 3 AM and running until I physically cannot continue and when I would plop back down on my bed i'm still unable to fall asleep.

For the times when I DO manage to sleep, I get just really bad nightmare, their just so awful and at times it feels like it physically hurts me. As soon as this started, I also noticed that I lost most of my appetite, I could go for an entire day without eating anything and by 6:00 PM I would notice that I ate absoloutely nothing and would force myself to eat a shitty small meal and be full afterwards.

I am already considering going to a medical professional but honestly there's probably not much they can do, they can't just say stop having nightmare or start eating more because I physically cannot do that. Atleast the good news is I easily wake up at 6 AM and by 8 AM i'm already at the gym for most of the weekday although with my terrible diet it would not really do much for my muscles so I might need to resort to protein powder.